Getting it Right Energy

You might have noticed I have not been posting as much. (or maybe you haven’t 😆) I started to recognize that I was writing from a place of fear.

I could feel how I was writing from this place of trying to get it right because the unconscious identity I had been living by was “People leave me if I get it wrong.” Once I became aware of this I started to see not only in my posts but in almost every area of my life this pressure to get it “right”.

I could also feel it threaded throughout my history.

So I stopped writing until I could write from a place of not needing to get it right. I pretty much stopped doing anything that was being driven by the energy to get it right.

I chose to discover the root of where I unconsciously took this identity on and feel any emotions that come up connected to it. It’s been quite the experience seeing how I have done something or made decisions from the motivation of needing to get it right so people wouldn’t leave.

This is why when people left it was so devastating for me because I thought I had done everything right. And sometimes I felt angry and resentful towards people who left even if I did do it right.

I am still titter tottering between the identity of needing to getting it right and “who gives a fuck, let’s just create for the fun of creation”. I am in between the growth stages of conscious incompetent and conscious competent. This is a new way of being for me and I am a newborn at not giving a fuck.

I cannot tell you when the next post will hit or how often I will post. I can tell you the more I don’t give a fuck to getting it right the more freedom I feel in my writing.

Much Love & Light,
Kerri-Ann
www.kerri-ann.com
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